I wish I was never born and never made...in this life...?

I have had so much tragedy in my life.... I lost custody of my daughter... I lost the Love of my Life the one I wanted to marry... I have been single for over 7 years now... Can't make friends.. Wanted to be happy.. Never happened... Just lost my job of three years two months ago... Wrongful termination... Lost my Dad 8 years ago... & Was a landlord rented rooms out in my house... Within the past less than month both of my tennants tried to kill themselves in my house.. With no warning... Worst part I still have massive clean up to do on my brand new carpet.. I am alone & forsaken... & nothing but hearbreak, sorrow & tragedy are near me.. Lost all of my friends.. I can't take it anymore.. & I don't even know why... I never wanted or asked to be here... Why dosn't God just un make me... I never asked to be alive... Plus I have a diagnosis i had surgery for last year... Now no medical benefits... I wish I was never alive... I loved people and they didn't Love me... & now I am just sad!!!! I wish I was never made through the eternities... or even thought of.... I wish i was never in existance... & GOd would just un-make me... I am so sick of it!!... I wish he would just un-make me!!..